mr-eric - Untitled -Breakdown-

eviscerate my heart
leave me bleeding
alas the heartless man
I never claimed to be

aside in this
I'm cast
good riddance I feel
too good, too little, not good enough
you were

I can't be sad for you
I've nothing in me
empty, sad – but not at your hand
I'm not myself

I feel but a brittle shell
so so very full of hurt and angst
tick its surface and but hollow resonance
with a deep sigh and a heavy heart
I soldier

to start over, to start anew
would be far too much, too easy
I cannot go back;
wouldn't know where to stop if I did

still lost, still drowning
a heartless
soulless man
a wounded warrior, still, looking down

Eric Shinn
May 24, 2010