Where to begin? Haha.. that's funny. I keep telling myself no bulleted list this time.

I'm days away from my third child. This one is a girl.. finally. So that makes two boys and a girl. Think I'm getting cut after this though. I really can't afford more right now and I feel it's the responsible thing to do.

My job is the same as last time..struggling a bit lately because of so much going on in my life. My stats have dropped to an almost embarrassing level. My boss is understanding though, thankfully.. as right now I am the proverbial 'weakest link'.

Love life.. I just.. won't touch that one. I would say hell has frozen over, but only time will tell if that's true or not. Lets just say--I'm not with anyone, probably not going to be with anyone for awhile, but sure as hell wouldn't mind some company.

I hate feeling--alone. In a room full of people and this little part of you is just nagging away 'cause you are utterly -alone-. Ever feel that way? Ya, not so fun. I'm not okay.

Anyways, enough for now, I work in a few hours and I could use some zzz's.

-~E

all the things that they make you say
and all of the love that you hide away
I'll pick you up and it will be all right
I'll pick you up and it will be tonight

she rode a horse into my head
she won't discipline the children
and now they're running wild on the beach
and I don't care
oh, I don't care
no I don't care hey, hey, hey

it's the middle of the night and you're here
playing dominoes and drinking beer
I tried to think of something deep to say
but my well is dripping dry today, hey
hey, hey, hey